I don’t understand why I had to be me. Seven billion people on the earth spinning, why’d you pick me? Every day I walk through the flames of hell and back. You say you got my back. I just want to be free to soar above the pain fly with angels. Demons in my mind keep me bound, my heart nowhere to be found because I’m simply dead inside I confide, I dont understand why I had to be me.
If I could rewind press the button back skip back a track, or two, or maybe a few more, skip back to before, before I was born. But I’m here and I’m me. A fact I can’t plead against, I’m on the fence. You say you give me free will but my guts I can’t spill (unless I’m mentally ill) but still it’s frowned upon, so selfish they say but I don’t care, I’d be gone, and no longer have to fight every day, every night. I just want to be gone, don’t have to be me, when I’m dead is when I’m free. Nothing. Unless there’s more than nothing. My soul will willow and blow no home, body’s dead, but still me, no body to break free. Limbo.
I just don’t understand why it had to be me.
(PS/disclaimer The themes of my rap and poems and blogs can sometimes tend to be dark or sound concerning….it is because I put my mind in the mind of people who are hurting.)