Sometimes I still cry at night
I remember as though I’m still there
the limbo I thought had lost its hold
but still,
my heart is still,
she darent breathe
for she would surely crack

…can’t cope
too much
LET GO!

Clouds circle and threaten
entangle and darken
and soon there is no escape
i fight, I try, I try to hide
but still, there is no escape.

Sometimes, I still cry at night, cant sleep
as memories I thought long gone
relived as if living, as if in the moment
surrender.
Give in.
I’m gone.

A poem from 2009